This story will describe some details about how your mom and I met and how you came about and the obstacales that led to your adoption.

I was living in Laverne Oklahoma when I met your mom. From what I can recall it was the summer of 84 I believe. Your mom lived in a town called Buffalo Oklahoma but her grandpa lived in Laverne as well and she and her sister often stayed with her grandpa and hung out in Laverne. I remember walking to her grandads on a few occasions to met with her and we would hang out as kids did those days. At some point my mother and I moved to Bennet Nebraska where I started school in 8th grade in 85. Your mom and I often wrote letters to each other and I guess would say were having a long distance relationship or sorts. It was the summer of 86 when my mom and I returned to Laverne to visit my sister that was living there at the time. I had just got my drivers license and was able to drive so I drove over to Buffalo and visited with your mom as I had not seen her for a year and she was my true first love. We spent many of days together hanging out. It was July 15th of 86. These photos on both sides are photos from that day. It was in this time period that your mother and I became intimate. Michelle your mom, birthday was June 4 mine was June 9th so she had just turned 15 and I had just turned 16. I ended up leaving back to Nebraska a few days later. After I returned to Nebraska I wrote your mom and called her on occasion when I could the next few months. At some point her letters stopped and when I called, her mom would answer and seemed not so very nice to me but would tell me Michelle wasn't there. I tried over the next 7 months to get a hold of Michelle but was to no avail. It wasn't until about a year later when I tried to call Michelle again and Michelle answered the phone. I was to say the least shocked since It had been almost a year or so since I had talked to her. I asked her where she had been and she said there was something she had to tell me.

So fast forward to 2009. Over the years I had tried to find Michelle even though I didn't know her married name and such but it still didn't deter me from trying. It was around September I was sitting at my laptop one night and happened to do a search for Michelles mom on Facebook. And low and behold her mom popped up. A quick view of her friends lists uh just about made me fall out of my chair as Michelle was there on her friends list and had joined facebook back in June of 2009. I was nervious as hell but I wasn't going to let an oppertunity to at least say hi after all these years go by. So I sent a note and a friend request and she wrote me back and we have became friends again and she was able to tell me more about what had happened to her during the pregnancy and other things about her life and I was glad to be able to play catchup with her about our lives and stuff. We both often wonder about our daughter and how she is doing and hope that she is doing ok and is happy. We cant change the past but we talked about leaving our information out there just in case Angie ever decided to find out who her birth parents are.

It has always been my goal to try to find our daughter even though there has been many of people asking why after all this time. During these last months in trying to find her I have seen many of people out there in the world trying to find there parents or children. I have read about a lot of reunions and many of people still seaching with less information than I have. I may of never met our daughter but I know that I will always love her no matter where she may be cause she is the result of two people that love each other and would of cared for her to the best of our abilities if we had been given the chance or choice to do so.

Adoption in many cases can be the best option for parents and the child when the parents do not have the ability to care for the child. I do not feel that this was the case in this matter but I do not have all the facts about the circumstances as to why her mother thought it was best to give the child away. I guess I will never understand the reasons until I have been able to talk to Michelles mother and ask why..... As a father now having a daughter of my own that I am raising that just turned 14 I do have a different perspective on things than when I was a young teenager when I first learned of the adoption. I know that if my daughter now were to become pregnant I would also be confronted with all the options of what to do. I know I would support my daughter in whatever decision that was made but I would encourage her to be responsible for the child and to keep it and knowing her I think she would and as her parent I would be there for her and the child no matter what or how hard it would be or what other people might think... I hope I am never faced with that senerio until my daughter is older.

As of today I am still searching for our daughter Angie and am receiving help from people that have spent time searching for other adoptees and have been successful in many of there searches. I am hoping with there knowledge and experience in these situations that they can help me futher the search for Angie. So far I am still hopeful that she can and will be found. I am currently waiting for a birth list from 3/20/87 of every child born in the state of Missouri and have been told that that list has the name of childern born that are adopted and the list will list there new adopted name. I have registered my search on the adoption.com web site and as well sent my search information to the ISRR (International Soundex Reunion Registry) http://www.isrr.net/ . I have also registered with the Missouri Department of Social Services Adoption Information Registry http://www.dss.mo.gov/cd/adopt/adoir.htm in hopes that maybe Angie if she knows that she was born in Missouri might someday check with that site to see if her parents are registered there. All I can do at this time is to put out information on some of these adoption registery sites and hope and pray that someday Angie will look for us as well.